Thursday, May 13, 2010

Multiple choices

Assalamualaikum,

so... during many points in life, surely most of us have met anger. and there we stand, we had two choices: walk away or embrace it. maybe i can't speak for the rest of you, but i'll tell you that for more than many occasions that I can count, I chose the latter. because almost always, I walk and run through life with ego. there's someone we know all to well?

there's just something about attending to my ego. listening to it, the need to stroke it emanates some sort of sick pleasure even if only for a few moments. and when it's not being attended to, there's that voice that scolds me... how could you have just walked away from that? how weak are you that you chose to keep quiet during all of it? don't you have principles? are you seriously going to let him talk to you like that? defend yourself! you know you're right!

Reaction a) You're right.. I shouldn't have to stand for this and accept it, I'm putting my foot down, I can't be treated like this!!!!

Reaction b) Shut up. I'm going to take wudhu and calm myself down because I do not want to react impulsively and do something that would displease my Lord. go away.

tick where relevant? i hope i will remember to take this multiple choice exam the next time I'm confronted with anger and ego.

anger is indeed a human emotion. a natural one? maybe. macam it's such a consuming emotion, that you need to satisfy kalau inda, inda puas... and indeed it's something that all of us find difficulty in controlling. but fact is... everytime I choose to embrace it.. my heart darkens.. and slowly my iman diminishes as my ego is catered to more, than my iman. so really.. is it worth to cater to my ego and anger at the expense of a diminishing iman? which fulfillment will last longer - the answer is clear yet it's still difficult for us to ponder over. manusia.. kami sungguh hina dan lemah.. ya Allah, ampunilah dosa-dosa kami kerana sesungguhnya tiada yang mengampuni dosa-dosa selain Engkau. ameen.

The strong man is not the good wrestler; the strong man is only the one who controls himself when he is angry. (Bukhari, Muslim)


Rasulallah Sal Allahu alaihi wa sallam said, "Whoever does not argue when he is in the wrong will have a home built for him on the edge of Paradise. Whoever avoids it when he is in the right will have a home built for him in the middle of Paradise. And whoever improves his own character, a home will be built for him in the highest part of Paradise." [Tirmidhi]

sama-sama lah kitani ambil kata-kata Rasulallah S.A.W., for no man can offer better advice than Allah's messenger... insyaAllah..

ps: i hope this post doesn't come across as angry because it's not meant to. just in case, let me just add some HEHEHEEHEHEHEHEHEHE in hoping that'll change your mind :D :D :D and as yush, speaking to myself before anyone else... all praises be to Allah for every goodness and anything flawed falls upon my own weaknesses.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Hehe i was just reading something this morning yg boleh relate to your post ani..

Ali r.a said,

"among deeds, there are 4 that are most difficult to adorn oneself with:

1) forgiveness when angry
2) generosity in hard times
3) chastity when alone
4) speaking the truth to the one that fears it"