Natural disaster

When I heard of the flood that occurred in Brunei, I didn't think of it as much. I mean yeah you hear of flood and the image in my head is like floating couches or something. I asked my dad about it just to make sure things are fine back home and whilst knowing that our home plus two of my grandparents' were okay, he told me details about the severity of it and wow, I'm just blown away. My other grandma's house at Gadong was badly affected unfortunately. I hope everyone is okay and those who are not, I hope God gives them the strength to go through this difficult time.

I am not that certain about the condition of it. But the details that I heard are more ground breaking than I imagined it to be. If electricity is out in the main areas, if not all, must have been made hard to operate daily routines and with traffic lights and roads being damaged, it must be a chaotic atmosphere to drive in. Insyallah, those who have/had been roughed by this incident are stronger tomorrow than they were yesterday and God bless us all.

For those who fought for their rights.

President elect Obama.

I pretty much have expressed whatever it is that I feel regarding Barack Obama in previous posts. America is where it is today because a few generations ago, those who were oppressed fought for their rights. I feel as though Barack Obama is the legacy of Martin Luther King Jr.

Here's to the hope, change and promise that Obama symbolizes.

"America. In the face of our common dangers, in this winter of our hardship, let us remember these timeless words. With hope and virtue, let us brave once more the icy currents, and endure what storms may come. Let it be said by our children's children that when we were tested we refused to let this journey end, that we did not turn back nor did we falter; and with eyes fixed on the horizon and God's grace upon us, we carried forth that great gift of freedom and delivered it safely to future generations."

Like all great speeches are made of. The heart. Okay that sounded tacky but I mean honourslyyy.

President Barack Hussein Obama. Like finally :D

Just the two of us.

Now dad this is a very sensitive subject

From the first time the doctor placed you in my arms
I knew Id meet death before Id let you meet harm
Although questions arose in my mind would I be man enough
Against wrong choose right and be standin up
From the hospital that first night
Took a hour just ta get the carseat in right
People drivin all fast got me kinda upset
Got you home safe placed you in your basonette
That night I dont think one wink I slept
As I slipped out my bed to your crib I crept
Touched your head gently felt my heart melt
Cause I know I loved you more than life itself
Then to my knees and I begged the lord please
Let me be a good daddy all he needs
Love knowledge discipline too
I pledge my life to you

Just the two of us we can make it if we try
Just the two of us just the two of us
Just the two of us building castles in the sky
Just the two of us you and i

Five years old bringin comedy
Everytime I look at you I think man a little me
Just like me
Wait an see gonna be tall
Makes me laugh cause you got your dads ears an all
Sometimes I wonder what you gonna be
A general a doctor maybe a mc
Haha I wanna kiss you all the time
But I will test that butt when you cut outta line trudat
Uh uh uh why you do dat
I try to be a tough dad but you be makin me laugh
Crazy joy when I see the eyes of my baby boy
I pledge to you I will always do
Everything I can
Show you how to be a man
Dignity integrity honor an
An I dont mind if you lose long as you came with it
An you can cry aint no shame it it
It didnt work out with me an your mom
But yo push come to shove
You was conceived in love
So if the world attacks and you slide off track
Remember one fact I got your back

Its a full time job to be a good dad
You got so much more stuff than I had
I gotta study just to keep with the changin times
101 dalmations on your cd rom
See me im
Tryin to pretend I know
On my pc where that cd go
But yo aint nuthin promised one day Ill be gone
Feel the strife but trust life does go wrong
But just in case
Its my place
To impart
One day some girls gonna break your heart
And ooh aint no pain like from the opposite sex
Gonna hurt bad but dont take it out on the next son
Throughout life people will make you mad
Disrespect you and treat you bad
Let God deal with the things they do
Cause hate in your heart will consume you too
Always tell the truth say your prayers
Hold doors pull out chairs easy on the swears
Youre living proof that dreams do come true
I love you and Im here for you

Just the two of us we can make it if we try
Just the two of us just the two of us
Just the two of us building castles in the sky
Just the two of us you and i

This is a good song dad how much am I gettin paid for this

It's such a sweet song. The sweetest.

From home to "home".

It's weird to say that things seem new yet familiar at the same time. I guess only I can understand by what it means when I say that Bristol smelled like the first day I came. I'm physically here but obviously my head is elsewhere.

Going back re-energized me but at the same time, makes me crave for it more. I'm feeling a little more homesick now rather than last September. I used to have the weekend getaways to London to look forward to seeing my sister, my uncle's family to their home. Now, I don't have that anymore. It's so spoilt to say this but like, now I think when I wanna go to London, I have to think about where to live and what to eat. Usually, it's right at the table =/ Time to learn to change.. independent learnin? Uh? I guezz.

And it doesn't help that I am sick. And that I have some Math work for tomorrow's tutorial. AND MICRO. Geezzz. Oh ya first day back to lectures wasn't so bad.. it was the usual. Counting and one day down to Easter holidays. LOLZ SO SAD!

I miss Bapa and Babu.

Temporary? Temporary.

So I thought with ample time during the holidays, I would be posting something on here. But apparently all the food being shoved down my throat (maybe that's not so accurate because all the "shoving" was done ermm by yours truly) have been keeping me occupied. So promising!

My (food) cravings are pretty much satisfied for now. Although that's no stopping me from stuffing my face. Umm however, my feet are still disgusting. I need a pedicure buddy bah - I could use Zaidah.. but my holiday days are pretty much numbered.

Speaking of holidays being over, almost and all, I am ready-ish to go back. I guess it's cause I want to get back to "normal" - ironically home this time around just isn't "real". It's so weird to phrase it that way when really you do feel that home is where the heart is, but I feel like a tourist at the same time in my own country just because I know it's temporary. (But living in the UK is also temporary, just "long-term temporary" - I think I lost you at "tourist" but never mind) In a way, it's just me thinking wanting the easy way of getting resettled to the student life as opposed to this dependent and bratty life that I am currently in, under Daddy's roof and all. This was actually one of the argument(s) to not go home in the first place, cause once I get back per se, I would have to re-deal with "awww I have to do everything by myself and have to depend on no one but me" fact, homesick included. But like I said, I'm feeling ready-ish about going back and I kind of miss it. Such as wearing my lovely winter coats.. shopping.. preparing food myself.. or not eating at all.. being with friends.. being.. independent.. sounds kinda superficial huh? a few parts, heh. And I do miss the lectures and stuff.. except that I mean no, and I'm ofcourse kidding.

But anyways.. (O. My. I didn't mean to put out a full on rant but I guess I'm in the mode.. and don't try to correct me, cause mode works just as well as mood) this decision to go back has been incredibly worth it. I got to be with the family for the birth of a new baby girl.. and just enough to say that I got to be with the family! My parents are awesome btw. As well as my granparents, as always. But I don't know if I can say as far as this going home has got me a bit energized but it's something like that.  I hope whatever I've been saying is not going to backfire me.. like me handling the whole resettling thing so badly and all. And I do hope that once I get back, I will get into a studying hard, playing hard attitude. But I always say that since forever, so I really wouldn't put any bet on what I just said. But I really do need to step up my game! It's University duurrr.

I miiiiisssss my friiiiends thooouuuugh! and my cousin.. sniffsniff. Okay seriously, I know I owe you that Nottingham visit since 2006 and now it's apparently 2009? So you have full permission to literally drag my ass all the way up to the Midlands within these few months, okay? But ofcourse you'd still have to entertain me in the ways you already know way too well? Entertain isn't the right word but I'm sure you get my driiiiiifffftttt and I knoooow youuu readdd thizzzz =DD I love you and we've been thinking about you all December, sweeeeaaaaar. Oh and myyy friends, whom I know I won't be seeing for a whiiillleeee. Not in January, at leaaaast. I miss you guys =(

Oh and you know what else I luuuurv? The fact that the moment I stepped out of my room in Bristol meant money spent diminished the memories of how, in every sense of the word, priceless living in Brunei is. I love how freeee it is to live hereeeee... don't pay rennnttt, don't pay fooood, don't pay transport, don't pay anythinggggg... okay maybe I am a little brattish.