Temporary? Temporary.

So I thought with ample time during the holidays, I would be posting something on here. But apparently all the food being shoved down my throat (maybe that's not so accurate because all the "shoving" was done ermm by yours truly) have been keeping me occupied. So promising!

My (food) cravings are pretty much satisfied for now. Although that's no stopping me from stuffing my face. Umm however, my feet are still disgusting. I need a pedicure buddy bah - I could use Zaidah.. but my holiday days are pretty much numbered.

Speaking of holidays being over, almost and all, I am ready-ish to go back. I guess it's cause I want to get back to "normal" - ironically home this time around just isn't "real". It's so weird to phrase it that way when really you do feel that home is where the heart is, but I feel like a tourist at the same time in my own country just because I know it's temporary. (But living in the UK is also temporary, just "long-term temporary" - I think I lost you at "tourist" but never mind) In a way, it's just me thinking wanting the easy way of getting resettled to the student life as opposed to this dependent and bratty life that I am currently in, under Daddy's roof and all. This was actually one of the argument(s) to not go home in the first place, cause once I get back per se, I would have to re-deal with "awww I have to do everything by myself and have to depend on no one but me" fact, homesick included. But like I said, I'm feeling ready-ish about going back and I kind of miss it. Such as wearing my lovely winter coats.. shopping.. preparing food myself.. or not eating at all.. being with friends.. being.. independent.. sounds kinda superficial huh? a few parts, heh. And I do miss the lectures and stuff.. except that I mean no, and I'm ofcourse kidding.

But anyways.. (O. My. I didn't mean to put out a full on rant but I guess I'm in the mode.. and don't try to correct me, cause mode works just as well as mood) this decision to go back has been incredibly worth it. I got to be with the family for the birth of a new baby girl.. and just enough to say that I got to be with the family! My parents are awesome btw. As well as my granparents, as always. But I don't know if I can say as far as this going home has got me a bit energized but it's something like that.  I hope whatever I've been saying is not going to backfire me.. like me handling the whole resettling thing so badly and all. And I do hope that once I get back, I will get into a studying hard, playing hard attitude. But I always say that since forever, so I really wouldn't put any bet on what I just said. But I really do need to step up my game! It's University duurrr.

I miiiiisssss my friiiiends thooouuuugh! and my cousin.. sniffsniff. Okay seriously, I know I owe you that Nottingham visit since 2006 and now it's apparently 2009? So you have full permission to literally drag my ass all the way up to the Midlands within these few months, okay? But ofcourse you'd still have to entertain me in the ways you already know way too well? Entertain isn't the right word but I'm sure you get my driiiiiifffftttt and I knoooow youuu readdd thizzzz =DD I love you and we've been thinking about you all December, sweeeeaaaaar. Oh and myyy friends, whom I know I won't be seeing for a whiiillleeee. Not in January, at leaaaast. I miss you guys =(

Oh and you know what else I luuuurv? The fact that the moment I stepped out of my room in Bristol meant money spent diminished the memories of how, in every sense of the word, priceless living in Brunei is. I love how freeee it is to live hereeeee... don't pay rennnttt, don't pay fooood, don't pay transport, don't pay anythinggggg... okay maybe I am a little brattish.