Assalamualaikum wrb,
bismillahirrahmanirrahim,
alhamdulillah thumma alhamdulillah! all praises and thanks belong to Allah, the Most Glorified, the Most Beautiful of names, the Most Merciful. all beauty, all power, all strength are all due to You.
sigh sigh sigh. happy sigh happy sigh happy sigh! i never thought i could feel like this. but i do. and i never expected to experience this feeling. but i am. You are ever so Kind, and I want to remember what You have done for me for the rest of my life and the next, and never cease to be in utter gratitude.
I don't know what I would do without You. i don't know what my life meant those years I didn't turn to You. and i ask of You please don't return me to that state of ignorance, because I couldn't bear another moment without this love.
many many many years it had been a one way street... and a conversation as if only with a wall... and many many many mistakes that i cannot begin to count... but You with Your mercy didn't give up on me... and again please make me forever in utter gratitude for this... and teach me to never lose hope on You as well.
Your love has led me to many more. although none compared to what You and i have. and i ask that You don't let anything ever exceed the love that I have for You. nevertheless they are amazing, please guide us continuously based on our love for You, make things easy for them, and please strengthen them all in whatever they are going through, only You know and You know best and I ask that they bring me much much much closer to You. because at the end of the day, that's all that really matters.
and you know what... sometimes words are not enough to describe what is in our hearts... there is no eloquence humanly possible to depict what the heart feels....
but of course... there is the Quran... where words actually cure and heal... where speech is the Most Powerful, Most Wise, Most Meaningful, Most Beautiful...
"Dan berpegang teguhlah kamu semuanya pada tali (agama) Allah, dan janganlah kamu bercerai berai, dan ingatlah nikmat Allah kepadamu ketika kamu dahulu (masa jahiliah) bermusuhan, lalu Allah mempersatukan hatimu, sehingga dengan karuniaNya kamu menjadi bersaudara, sedangkan (ketika itu) kamu berada di tepi jurang neraka, lalu Allah menyelamatkan kamu dari sana. Demikianlah, Allah menerangkan ayat-ayat Nya kepadamu agar kamu mendapat petunjuk."
(Ali Imran:103)
perfect perfect perfect. utter absolute perfection. Allahuakhbar. You are so great, and i ask that my heart is as strong as my speech in praising You. let my words be sincere that my heart feels it too. because i want to love you for the rest of my life and beyond. and i ask that You continue to grant me continuous guidance to cherish our relationship until that moment we finally meet and i ask You that it will be the best moment in my entire existence since the very start. :')
please forgive me for all the errors I have made. and may You be pleased with our families, and grant us Jannah ameen :D
wassalam.
