Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Dear Allah...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,


Assalamualaikum wrb,


Alhamdulillah thumma alhamdulillah, all praises and thanks belong to Allah SWT, the Most Merciful, Most Loving, Most Forgiving. may Allah forgive all our sins and guide our hearts to true and sincere repentance aameen. greetings and salutations upon our beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW, our role model. 


it hasn't been that long since the first time I fell in love with You... but why do I struggle to remember it sometimes? why is it so difficult to contain the feelings but so easy for it to slip away and forget? yet in spite of all of that, i know that Your love for me is still there, even when I was wavering and weakening, You are still there... ready to wait for me to come back running to You.. and You would open Your arms for me, and pick up pieces of my heart and mend them whole again. 


Your unconditional love sustains me, Your mercy enables me to breathe, even during the darkest hours, and I didn't know what to do or think, You held me when nobody else knew what I was going through. I spoke and You listened. Sometimes even my heart became hard, You surprised me with a glimmer of hope that brought me back. 


I am weak and You know so. You are my only source of strength. During times of hardship, You know what I can bear even when I didn't know myself. You gave them to me, only because You wanted to hear me speak.. cry and shed tears, handing over my affairs to You and it was all You teaching me to rely on You. and indeed, everything that I had been able to get through was all due to You. 


certainly I haven't been as best as I could be. but Your love really encourages me... despite my infinite flaws.  teach me ya Rabb to love and worship You the way that You are pleased with. 


You have always been there, since day zero. Before I knew myself.  but I hope my happiest moment is yet to come. because the happiest moment is when a slave gets to see the face of his Master. make me and my loved ones of Your slaves who will be granted the sight of You, ya Wadud, aameen. 


o Allah... guide us to the straight path. Allahumma aameen.