Monday, December 14, 2009

Choice to listen and decide to be.

you know how life works in two motions; up and down. and to me, the way to deal with those is simply acceptance. and it is not easy, most certainly not especially in reference to experiencing the lowness of life. and i try to take comfort in the genuineness of the situation which is that the lowness of life might not be something that we like yet it's good for us. i am referring to Allah's words to us and we should think that that suffices.

dan boleh jadi kamu benci kepada sesuatu padahal ia baik bagi kamu, dan boleh jadi kamu suka kepada sesuatu padahal ia buruk bagi kamu. Dan (ingatlah), Allah jualah Yang mengetahui (semuanya itu), sedang kamu tidak mengetahuinya. (2:216)

but.

this heart is weak. this self is not the most righteous. this mind is feeble. i am pretty upset with myself recently. each day i discover that i was withering away from what i was trying to build myself to become.. and i kept telling myself to act fast before i could no longer realize. my attachment to this world will be the death of me if i don't continue to fight it... syaitan has failed to make us submit ourselves to berhala or any other object that seems incredibly ridiculous to refer to as powerful.. but syaitan can easily, and already has and doing so indeed at this right moment, influence us to love this world more than anything and that is poisonous. and i have difficulty in differentiating syaitan's voice with my own.. never there a time we want to live a day that we find no difference between the two :S nauzubillah.

astaghfirullahalazim. astaghfirullahalazim. astaghfirullahalazim.

what holds me together today is my faith. i would crumble down to useless pieces without it. to acknowledge that Allah is always there for me carries me through whatever. i am worthless without my submission to my creator... i need not understand why life has taken me to several different routes that i might have not liked myself to cross; but i do not know what is best for me as Allah does. i made bad choices and for sure, i will again. all that comforts me is that Allah knows me better than i know myself, He's closer to me than I am to my own self and mainly, He intends nothing bad for me, ever..

Sesungguhnya Allah tidak menzalimi manusia sedikit pun, tetapi manusia itulah yang menzalimi dirinya sendiri. (10:44)

Ya Allah.. give me strength to not be deceived by syaitan.. give me Your guidance so i shall not falter towards the wrongest path.. grant me Your blessings in whatever i do in life. and i pray that You bless me with patience.

Tuhan. hadiahkanlah kasihMu kepadaku. kurniakanlah rinduku kepadaMu. mudahan syukurku adalah milikMu.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

a pure soul untouched by the devil.

what is the sweetest thing a human being has done for you? what is the most generous thing a human being has done for you? what is the most amazing thing a human being done for you?

well. whatever you have to answer. i'm most certain that it will not exceed the magnitude of what this human being has done for you, me and just about every other one.

in the last few moments of his life....

Suddenly there was a person who said salaam. "May I come in?" he asked.

But Fatimah did not allow him to enter the room. "I'm sorry, my father is ill," said Fatimah, and turned back and closed the door. She went back to Prophet Muhammad sallalahu alaihi wasalam and he opened his eyes and asked, "Who was he, my daughter?"

"I dont know my father. It's the first time I'm seeing him," Fatimah said gently.

"Know one thing...! He is the one who erases the temporary pleasure; he is who separates the companionship in the world. He is the Angel of Death," said Rasulullah sallalahu alaihi wasalam. Fatimah bore the bomb of her cry. The death angel came towards Him, but Rasulullah sallalahu alaihi wasalam asked by Jibrail did not come along with him. Then Rasulullah sallalahu alaihi wasalam looked at his daughter with a trembled look, as if he wanted to reminisce about every part of his daugther's face. Then, Jibrail was called. Jibrail was ready int he sky to welcome the soul of Rasulullah and the leader of the Earth. "O Jibrail, explain to me about my rights in front of Allah? (subhana watalah), Rasulullah sallalahu alaihi wasalam asked with a very weak voice.

"The doors of the sky have opened; the angels are waiting for your soul. All Jannats are open widely waiting for you" Jibrail said. But, in fact, all that did not make Rasulullah sallalahu alaihi wasalam relieved. His eyes were still full of worry. "You are not happy to hear this news?" asked Jibrail.

"Tell me about the destiny of My People in the future?" said Rasulullah sallalahu alaihi wasalam

"Don't worry, O' Rasulullah. I heard Allah (subhana wataala) told me: "I make Jannat haram for everyone, except the people of Muhammad," Jibrail said. The time for Malaekat Izrail to do his work became closer and closer. Slowly, Rasulullah's sallalahu alaihi wasalam soul was pulled. It seems that the body of Rasulullah sallalahu alaihi wasalam was full of sweat; the nerves of his neck became tight.

"Jibrail, how painful this is!" Rasulullah sallalahu alaihi wasalam slowly uttered with a groan. Fatimah closed her eyes, Ali sat beside her bow deeply and Jibrail turned his face back. "Am I repugnant to you that you turn your face back O Jibrail?" Rasulullah sallalahu alaihi wasalam asked.

"Who is the one who could see Habibullah in His sakartul maut," Jibrail said.

"Not for a while," then Rasulullah sallalahu alaihi wasalam uttered a groan because of unbearable pain. "O Allah (subhana watala) how great is this sakartul maut. Give me all these pains, but DON'T to MY PEOPLE." The body of Rasulullah sallalahu alaihi wasalam became cold, his feet and chest did not move anymore. With tears in eyes, His lips vibrated as if he wanted to say something. Ali took his ear close to Rasulullah sallalahu alaihi wasalam, "Uushiikumbis salahti, wa maa malakat aimanuku" "Take care of the salat and take care of the weak people among you." Outside the room, there were cries, each one shouting, Sahaba holding each other. Fatimah closed her face with her hands. Again, Ali took his ear close to Rasulullah's sallalahu alaihi wasalam and with this mouth which became bluish, and TEARS IN HIS EYES, he uttered: "Ummatii Ummatii, Ummatii" " My People, My People, My People"

:') :'( :'| Masyallah. such love and compassion he had for us. it's unspeakable.

you know.. the love that we are surrounded with in our lives, with our parents, siblings, grandparents, friends, significant others, etc are different to the love Muhammad has for his ummah. this love is not borne out of physical attraction or interaction or family values or friendship. he loves us despite of having never met us,or known us, before our own existence. this is a love that needs not make sense, yet still powerful. you know, he would sacrifice for you. Masyallah, he already had. the heart of Muhammad is the purest of all, one that is coveted yet not possible for others.

it's highly negligent on our part not to acknowledge what love he has for us. instead we throw our devotion and admiration to people who can sing or act or are extremely good looking or whatever else they are idolized for.. i don't want to demean you for liking people who can sing/act/dance/good looking etc, etc, because surely i did/do it too. But I guess what I'm trying to say is.. what about Muhammad? I mean personally I learnt of him in ugama school and you know basically growing up in Brunei as a Muslim country, knowing that Nabi Muhammad was our last prophet and so on. But it just stopped there you know.. I never really dug up what it was about this man that was so incredibly special to his companions once upon a time.. he was a good person, surely he was, he was the prophet, he was chosen by Allah ofcourse he was a good person. but that's not enough to know. to love him, we need to dig deeper about his life and his character and his sunnah. and just to take one example that sort of illustrates all the goodness that was present in him was the above text. on his death bed. his last few breaths. in the state of utmost and unbearable pain that we cannot fathom, he thought of us. and do we think of him enough is the question, or at all? and surely, to profess love for Muhammad S.A.W. does not come in the form of three lettered words. instead they should be evident in our attitudes. one of the most important duties as a practising Muslim is that we follow the sunnah of Rasulallah S.A.W. mencintai Rasulallah S.A.W. is a huuuuuge part of our iman.. it's a huuuuuuge part in fulfilling our obedience to Allah S.W.T. Insyallah.. one of the many things we should keep asking for from Allah is not everything that glitters or so on.. instead.. we should keep asking for love for Muhammad even if just a dot of how he loves his ummah.

Rasulullah [sallallaahu alayhi wasallam] said, “He who holds firm to my Sunnah when corruption is rampant in my Ummah will attain the reward of a hundred martyrs.” (al-Bayhaqi fi Zuhd; Hidaayatur ruwaat vol.1 pg.136 Hadith174)

Sayyiduna Anas [radhiallaahu anhu] reports that Rasulullah [sallallaahu alayhi wasallam] advised, “Whoever cherishes my Sunnah, indeed he cherishes me and whoever loves me will be with me in Jannah.” (Sunan al-Tirmidhi Hadith2678; Ibid)

WOW? WOW! the thought.. of being with Rasulallah S.A.W. in Jannah.. Masyallah.. adakah kami mampu memiliki iman sebegitu tinggi? wallahu'alam.

again, the above bolded example is just one of the many infinite astounding testaments to his character. his contributions to Islam is just.. my, oh my, incredibly mega.. and to think that we are all part of his legacy just.. is a completely mesmerizing sentiment. Masyallah. the only problem regarding it is how much do we really live up to such a tremendous legacy as left by Rasulallah S.A.W? sigh..

and i feel this is a burning revelation that i should include here just to expose more of the love he felt for his ummah.. and my cousin gave me this link, who also told me this story:

Tanya Rasulullah s.a.w.: "Siapakah penduduk masing-masing pintu?"

Jawab Jibrail: "Pintu yg terbawah untuk orang-orang munafik, dan orang-orang yg kafir setelah diturunkan hidangan mukjizat nabi Isa a.s. serta keluarga Fir'aun sedang namanya Al-Hawiyah. Pintu kedua tempat orang-orang musyrikin bernama Jahim, Pintu ketiga tempat orang shobi'in bernama Saqar. Pintu ke empat tempat Iblis dan pengikutnya dari kaum majusi bernama Ladha, Pintu kelima orang yahudi bernama Huthomah. Pintu ke enam tempat orang nasara bernama Sa'eir." Kemudian Jibrail diam segan pada

Rasulullah s.a.w. sehingga ditanya: "Mengapa tidak kau terangkan penduduk pintu ke tujuh?" Jawabnya: "Di dalamnya orang-orang yg berdosa besar dari ummatmu yg sampai mati belum sempat bertaubat." Maka nabi s.a.w. jatuh pengsan ketika mendengar keterangan itu, sehingga Jibrail meletakkan kepala nabi s.a.w. di pangkuannya sehingga sadar kembali dan sesudah sadar nabi saw bersabda: "Ya Jibrail, sungguh besar kerisauanku dan sangat sedihku, apakah ada seorang dari ummat ku yang akan masuk ke dalam neraka?"

Jawabnya: "Ya, iaitu orang yg berdosa besar dari ummatmu." Kemudian nabi s.a.w. menangis, Jibrail juga menangis, kemudian nabi s.a.w. masuk ke dalam rumahnya dan tidak keluar kecuali untuk sembahyang kemudian kembali dan tidak berbicara dengan orang dan bila sembahyang selalu menangis dan minta kepada Allah.

...................... iblis on a lower level than umat Muhammad in the Hellfire? i remember i was shocked upon hearing this.. there is nothing/noone that/who is the dirtiest, unworthy, sickest, and other words in association to those, than iblis! but astaghfirullah, we cannot question Allah S.W.T. we cannot really be shocked at this though you know.. pasal.. kira, we already know.. we already know what Allah asks us to do and not to do, what to approach and what to stay away from, etc.. yet we still act as if His words aren't real, Astaghfirullah. Ampunkanlah hamba-hambaMu yang lemah ini, Allah.. kira, islam atu sampai sudah wah arah ketani, and then we have the audacity to neglect it? Nazubillah. Wallahu'alam.

Al-Quran Surah Al- Baqarah Ayat 159 Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang menyembunyikan apa yang telah Kami turunkan dari keterangan-keterangan dan petunjuk hidayat, sesudah Kami terangkannya kepada manusia di dalam Kitab Suci, mereka itu dilaknat oleh Allah dan dilaknat oleh sekalian makhluk.

but yeah, observe how Rasulallah S.A.W. reacted... how precious were his tears? how did he have the capacity, the heart, the energy to be so concerned about us? can you just imagine the prayers he recited to Allah on our behalf.. the sacrifices he was willing to make in order to prevent us from stepping into the Hellfire? Masyallah. His strength is completely out of this world's league, incredibly mind-blowing and incomprehensible; something that our human mind cannot process - the might and power of Allah Azza Wajalla. ya Allah.. Rasulallah S.A.W. is our leader, and I say is, because despite his demise in this world, his legacy remains within the Muslimins and Muslimahs and most importantly this man is undoubtedly irreplaceable, no greater man will come and lead us like he had and his mark has been placed that will forever not fade. i mean it's amazing because his leadership did not die with him; Allah has left his leadership as to help humankind to the most righteous path, Insyallah, Amin.

and a reminder here, whenever we come across his name or just the mere mention or whatever, the thoughts etc.. baca selawat ke atas Nabi.. kerana kalau kami tidak acknowledge just the mere mention of him.. malaikat akan mengutuk kita.. that thought is completely disgraceful so Insyallah we will always have the heart and tongue to express selawat ke atas Nabi bila-bila saja and especially bila saja kami dengar atau baca, etc, nama Muhammad S.A.W. Insyallah.

Most significantly, Rasulallah S.A.W. represents a far greater power, everything that he is/was comes/came from none other than Allah S.W.T. Muhammad S.A.W. is His creation and so further proves how amazing and almighty Allah is.. Masyallah..

and here before i end this note, ofcourse speaking to myself before anyone else. and i apologize for any errors i might have incurred.

remember him. remember his immense goodness. remember his strength. remember his hardships. remember his sacrifices. remember his prophecy.

:')