assalamualaikum wrb dearest beloved to Allah,
bismillahirrahmanirrahim,
alhamdulillah thumma alhamdulillah.. all praises and thanks belong to Allah Azza Wajal, Lord of all the worlds. we ask Allah, the Most Merciful, the Most Forgiving, to forgive all our sins, guide our hearts to true repentance and replace our sins with good deeds ameen. salutations upon Rasulullah SAW, our qudwah hasanah, the best example provided to mankind in every sense of the word.
as aforementioned, currently undertaking Masters and yet again, away from home. sometimes three years down the road just don't make it any easier. but i have conflicting feelings about this. i want to be home yet i don't want to leave this place. why? although i have some good amount of time before I finish the course, I can't help but feel that it's happening pretty quickly and if life proceeds, insyaAllah, I will soon leave the UK for a very long time, if not for good. most probably for good. but then we never really know. but for now, it's looking to be that way.
i miss home very much... i want to be home. and the feeling somewhat becomes stronger as we become bombarded with assignments after assignments... perhaps the exhaustion is inevitable. and sometimes maybe we experience some sort of a diminishing returns situation.
but hold on. our purpose being overseas is much more than earning an education certificate or qualification. don't limit the horizon. these years are our defining moments. our days away from home are us discovering ourselves, and finding our strengths and weaknesses, and being confused about life and at the same time, finding the answers to solve the puzzle about life and where we fit in life itself. these are the years that not everyone gets to live by, and if we don't realize what we're supposed to do with these years and how to come out of them, then I guess... what's the difference if we just stayed at home?
this is the time we should embrace. this is our youth. we don't have forever in this world. spend it right. being in a foreign land offers such vast opportunities for us to open our eyes, our hearts to something that we have been oblivious back at home with our golden plates (figure of speech really) and whatnot. the point of being here is not to come back with a piece of paper that you can bring to a company in exchange for money.
if we are here struggling for a cause, maybe we are on the right track. it depends on what cause we are on about. I for one, support for the one cause, that frees one from the torment of the world. for one cause, that will give your life a meaning that you will never find elsewhere. get connected to this cause. if you already are.. strengthen yourself in this cause. what cause may this be? you may just have to find it in your own manual.
i don't necessarily understand your struggles. but you know Who does. so get connected. these are the years, at least for me... that I have found Him and I ask Him to make me forever grateful and to keep me firm and steadfast in righteousness in His path and make us all live by the Quran and sunnah more and more each day until He is pleased with us all.
all that is good is completely from Allah, the Most Perfect. all that is not, is derived from my own ego and inadequacies. may Allah purify our intentions in everything that we do. may Allah increase our fervor to seek His knowledge to please Him and benefit the ummah. may Allah grant us sincerity in our speech and action. ameen.
i ask of your forgiveness for any offence I may have incurred and i seek forgiveness from Allah, for all the errors I have made. and all praises and thanks belong to Allah SWT, the Most Glorified, Most High.
wassalam
