back again.

assalamualaikum wrb,

bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

i was going to type my rant on twitter but the 140 characters limit put me off and i was like "oh ya i have another outlet for that!" why is it that, everytime i feel like on rant mode, my sarcasm antenna starts to become activated =.= i'll try to... not to.

anyways, alhamdulillah thumma alhamdulillah, i've graduated, did i not mention that, yeah my posts have been reduced to only a few times a year. so epic. that word is coming back into my dictionary, not really, that'd be the first time it has crept up again. i actually wanted to write a graduation post, i always thought it'd be perfect to frame into words but it didn't really happen. nonetheless, i am in utter gratitude that i managed to pass the stage because it wasn't very easy and all the strength that I came through it all with was all due to Allah alone.

so now i am about to pursue masters. again.. masyaAllah.. i didn't really want to in the beginning but I thought if I'd get it, then I'd take it as a sign from Allah that i'd be able to do it, insyaAllah. but the feeling is a bit surreal to start classes again. having to adjust with being feeling foreign. and all of it. although i know that there is no time for this anxiety, what there is time for is excitement and immense gratitude that Allah is actually taking me to a place that is incredibly generous, alhamdulillah.

but i must say. it doesn't get that much easier to leave my family. it doesn't get that much easier to say goodbye, even if it'll be only for a while. but i do want to go. i think this one year abroad again is a stage for me to develop and grow some more, and Allah knows how incompetent I am.

i guess i know the road ahead isn't going to be a smooth one, maybe i'm afraid of that, i'm only human. but as a slave of Allah, i am entitled to challenges and struggle. and all i can say as of right now is come what may, my Lord, o Allah, Most Knowing, stay with me, strengthen me and protect me, and may You guide us all to Jannah, ameen ya Rabb.

and let this journey commence again... for the sake of Allah, here we come.

may Allah forgive us all. greetings upon our beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW.

- the tone of this rant has tremendously turned around a lot, masyaAllah... suddenly transformed into a tazkirah for me heh -