Nostalgia.

I didn't have a perfect childhood. Probably far from it... but it was a great one, nevertheless. A really great one. =')

I was from my cousin's blog and she brought me into this nostalgic moment that led me to write this. But I guess this is also brought about by me having to say goodbye to my family in London.. my sister went back home for good last Saturday and next Monday, my uncle and his family are going back for good as well.

Which really sucks ='( I mean.. it's great for them.. they deserve to be back home with their families where they belong.. but.. I guess it's selfish really.. but you know.. we've had great times here.. if it weren't for London, I wouldn't have been close to his kids. And I just love(d)their home.

Anyway. I grew up in my grandparents' house for almost all my life.. after Babu passed away, we were there obviously.. and I don't know, sometimes I forget this.. but I don't think I could ever go through what I did as a child if it weren't for the love and care my grandparents, my uncles and my aunts provided me.. my sister and my brother.. My dad.. as a single parent until my mom came along.. I really don't have a Brady Bunch package or even something close to it.. but the family Allah bestowed me with.. is pretty amazing.

It wouldn't be real to wish for a machine where I could turn back time and be a kid again, even just for a day. But I want to. I want to go back to the simple days and embrace it again. Maybe even in a way that I never got to. Those days rocked when everyone was still living in Surapit =') The memories of my siblings and my cousin growing up together are simply the ones that I just.. heart. We didn't have as many toys as the little cousins do today but we totally had each other to play with all the time. We showered, ate, slept, played together... =') The days... when we ate nasi lemak Kaka Wani bought from sekolah ugama Serusop so the four of us would eat it together on the 'meja bulat' and me and kaka Amal fighting over the heart shaped nugget during lunch after school...... procrastinating ugama school by watching Akazukin Cha Cha on Cartoon Network and then dreading 9pm because that was when the channel became TNT!

But you know, even though we don't live at my grandparents' anymore.. we still practically do, with the amount of hours we tend to spend there! If we don't go there even for a day, my grandma would be all like "duiiii laaaai mana tia kau ani." Hehe. Miss her <3>

I miss everything about the old days. It's not just me writing this post, you know cause I'm starting to appreciate family values more now that I am geographically disunited from mine... but I genuinely do. You don't want to be living in the past, that's true, no matter how happy and great it was. But it doesn't hurt to reminisce. And you know I'm happy to be here, I wanted to be here, no question. But it's not wrong to want to be home at the same time, is it? =)

Alhamdulillah :)