different kind of summer approaching

bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

assalamualaikum wrb,

alhamdulillah, all praises and thanks belong to Allah, ar Rahman ar Raheem, al Ghafur al Wadud. greetings and salutations upon our beloved Prophet SAW. 

hehehe... it's been a long time since the last post... i do miss writing... but for now, i'm just going to have to ramble about anything ;) hehehe i am quite the ranting kind of person if you haven't already noticed. 

so... this year's summer will be different... or is already different... usually i would already be counting the days to home. but no, perhaps it's better for my iman to stay during the summer... Allah knows best. currently struggling with dissertation because I keep changing my mind, unsure of what to focus on, I am so tied down to wanting to do something that is practical but i just don't quite know what. there are so many ideas but which ones to focus on? i suddenly thought about the financial crisis and how beyond the economics and politics and technicalities of risk that nobody really saw coming, essentially I believe that it was because of dishonesty and greed. disasters happen because we tend to make bad decisions. i know it sounds so simple and i don't think i can write this as a thesis because it sounds like a sweeping statement? and i haven't found literature that can back this argument up too.

but then again also, I am quite keen on development politics. the struggle for developing countries on catching up with globalization but at the same time, with some irony, globalization is pushing them backwards. yeah... but then again that's too broad! o Allah, please guide me to write about something that You want me to write about! 

ok enough about dissertation worries... hmmm... something else that also has been occupying my mind is about leaving the UK for good very soon. of course this deal was temporary, no body said we could stay as long as we liked. i guess it's just... sentimental you know. i was very young and naive and somewhat a different person coming here... and i would like to think that going back... i have somewhat matured, grown, and a different yet the same person... i must have lost a few things along the way but the people... the lessons... the... I have gained, are certainly Allah's way of replacing such losses... and when Allah replaces our lives with something, it's definitely for the better and is the best. 

i think i'd like to save this post for another time... but I think the best thing about the past 4 years... is falling in love with You, my Rabb... hehehe. no... I take that back actually... I don't think.. I know the best thing about the past 4 years is falling in love with Allah :'))) 


anyway i somehow foresee more writings about this different summer... maybe.. perhaps.. hehe.

may Allah forgive all our sins and errors ameen.

wassalam